When you know something is wrong

So I've known something isn't right for a long time now. When things are right, people don't twitch, so I should have known this all along. But denile is a powerful card in my hand. I can go on for long periods of time simply not accepting the truth or where this will end up. But my card has been played and I have to accept the facts. There could be something wrong with my brain. When you tell a doctor about a big one directional twitch that you've developed and her eyes get as big as saucers, there's obviously something wrong. Now I'll probably end up seeing a neurologist over Christmas break. I could easily handle when there was something wrong with my stomach, and it's not bad dealing with problems in my joints. Heart problems didn't even really get to me. But the fact that there could be something wrong with my brain is absolutely and completely 100% terrifying. What's going to happen if there is something wrong? How will I handle that? What if I'm just not strong enough to handle this?